A Lot of Changes

This past month started a lot of crazy changes for me. I made the decision to start looking for an apartment to live to eventually try starting a little bookshop. I have since applied to one that is low income housing that I can get a lower rate at, but the process has become quite tedious considering my employment teaching is essentially contract based and has been a pain to verify for the housing people. But they have been trying very hard to get me approved. It has just been a long waiting game right now. I hope to hear soon either way.

Because of the apartment, and knowing that my income has been a bit less than last year, I decided I really needed a part time job. While I applied for a job at a New Age shop back in January, I never heard back. It made me disappointed, but I decided it would be a good idea to try elsewhere. I couldn’t wait forever on that. So I reapplied back at Starbucks at a couple locations near where I would potentially be moving. Even if I didn’t get the apartment I decided I’d move back home with my parents to help save up some money and help my parents around their house again. I heard back fairly quickly from a Starbucks and went in for the interview and accepted the job. They have good insurance and benefits and I had worked there before. I thought it would be a good fit again to go back.

Then, on my second day working, I get a call from the New Age shop asking me to come in for an interview. I was so excited and readily accepted their offer of a second interview. I thought, two 20 hour part time jobs could work with teaching and everything. I could do it. Of course, I sort of forget I have hit 30 now and that ambition of working that much was a little of a stretch. I am still not even finished with this semester of classes and these last two weeks have been so exhausting with scheduling issues and everything that I made the decision to drop one of the jobs.

For me, working at this New Age shop is the epitome of my desires in general and the work I wish to do in life. I have put so much work these last 12 years with all the crazy from college and then the more directed spiritual work afterwards, that I want something where I can show that work off somehow instead of constantly hiding behind a facade of mundane things the majority of my life. These things I am so passionate about, and now I work at a place where I can be upfront about that passion instead of quiet and reserved because the people who I am around might not get it.

There will be strange ones that come in. As the one owner said, shops like these attract a lot of healers and those that need healing in some way. But there will also be a ton of kindred spirits that come in that I can share my expertise with and help find what it is they need to heal. This store has been such a source of healing and spiritual guidance for me since college that I want to share that with others.

I felt bad initially about how I am leaving Starbucks, but at the same time, that life there has long since passed. I may not get the benefits anymore, but my continued growth is not there. It is with this other shop. This shop that I fell in love with back during 2007 when I first went to a meditation class with my Anam Cara who had heard about it from their co-worker. It has helped me so much in my path. Starbucks had only been a mundane means to an end back when I was 24.

I feel liberated and free again right now. Working this past week at this shop has uplifted me more than I expected. After a little anxiety about trying to maintain both until I was no longer on the schedule at Starbucks, I made a decision that has truly made me feel like I am on the right track again. The potential move into my own apartment is exciting and I can’t wait to find out about getting in. If things don’t work out with it, I have other options. Things are moving forward again on my path and these mundane things are helping that.

I felt trapped and stuck for quite awhile with various things and these changes are good. Too much of the same has been a detriment to my growth and development and I want to grow again. It has taken a bit to realize where these things are that needed changed, but I feel the movement again I have needed to feel again. And that movement gives me hope.

So here are to some continuing changes. I have some other posts I need to write up soon, and hopefully I will get to them by the end of the month. Till next time. ❤️

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May Monthly and Weekly Tarot

Last Month’s Reflection:

Last month’s pulls can be found here. Last month was rather interesting and had been more of a month of moving forward on changes. The Overall for last month was the 9 of Swords with anxiety and self-torment as its message and while I think it started out that way, it prompted me to move forward in some decisions of change in my life. This whole year has been about a movement of change, I think. There were points where the Nine of Swords was very prevalent this past month, but that got me to move again. I have made a decision to move out on my own (if things go well with this apartment application) and to seek some part-time employment. By the end of the month, things were starting to move at an unexpected pace.

May’s Monthly Tarot:

For May I am pulling with the Linestrider deck again but I also wanted to make note of the cards I pulled in my Yearly Spread at the beginning of the year. I pull from two decks for my yearly with Shadowscapes being for my spiritual life and the Revelations Tarot being for my more mundane life. Respectively, I pulled the Queen of Pentacles and the Ten of Wands for the Month of May.

Shadowscapes‘ Queen of Pentacles is about nurturing and generosity of spirit. She is a supportive and protective Queen. She is full of strength and is trustworthy and loyal. The Ten of Wands from the Revelations tarot is about strength as well. The card shows off his ability to balance the weight of all the wands near perfectly. While things may be difficult to bear, it can be done and no responsibility he takes on overpowers him completely. These two pulls indicate being able to bear, with strength, the burdens and responsibilities in my life that are coming up (both mundane and spiritual).

Week One (May 1-7): Ace of Pentacles

This first week is all about new ventures and ideas. It is month of growth and success. I have started my new part-time job at Starbucks again, but I also got called in for an interview at the New Age shop I applied to back in January and was pretty much told I would have it even after another interview on Thursday with the owner.

Week Two (May 8-14): Seven of Wands

This week may be a week centered on some competition and jealousies. There may be some conflict or challenge that gets in my way and I may need to take a stand. Considering how some things have gone, let us hope it is resolved.

Week Three (May 15-21): Knight of Pentacles

I can expect my progress to be a bit slower and more methodical this week. I will need to focus on being more patient with things. Considering how fast this first week has been so far and the conflict from week two, this slower week may be a good thing and help me finish some tasks for my teaching job.

Week Four (May 22 – 28): Ace of Cups

The last full week of May looks to hold some more new opportunities and beginnings again. This may be the week I get to move into my new place if I get approved. It might also hold a new spiritual awakening as many things in this month’s pull has been more mundane, this may shift at the end of the Month.

Overall: Six of Cups (reversed)

This was the only reversed card in the deck and the reading. Childish behavior and clinging to the past may be impeding my progress this month. This could be my own behavior or others in my life. Based on the week-by-week pulls it may come to a head during the second week of the month.

Weekly Tarot for May 1-7

I am doing this one a little more like stichomancy way because I left my deck but had my tarot book for Linestrider. So it will be a bit different this time.

What should I focus on this week? – Knight of Wands

This Knight is focused on movement and action. This is a week where I need to focus on taking action and moving. He is enthusiastic and can be hasty at times so I must be sure to not act hastily at times.

What lesson is in this for me? – The Sun

Movement and action will help lead to success, prosperity, and happiness for me. This week the fact pace action the beginning of this week has so far proven to be will likely continue but it will bring positive vibes and energy into my life.

What advice is there for overcoming any obstacles? – Knight of Swords

This is a Knight focused on the intellectual side of things. He may be bold like the Knight of Wands, but he is more thought based than impulse based. He can be severe and harsh because of that. His advice is two-fold for this week, that I need to look at things objectively, but to also to not disregard the feelings of others. He is here to remind to slow down the progress just a bit so that lack of tact doesn’t impede the progress that needs to be made.

Surprisingly, I think that worked well and was a nice call out for myself. There are times when being blunt is necessary and other times when tact is required. The rest of this week needs more tact to keep the impulsiveness of the Knights in check so that the success and happiness the Sun promises can be shared.