Can’t Get Rid of You

For whatever reason I got this song stuck in my head. I am going to blame it on Gerarian.

Roomie and I were joking about how she couldn’t get rid of him so we’d have to spend some lifetimes apart and then I started saying how I would never be able to get rid of him even if I jumped into the Void or hopped into another dimension or universe he’s still find me. >.<

As I started going to bed tonight, “Love Me Like You Do” by Ellie Goulding started playing in my head so I had to listen to it. I am sure it will be stuck in my head for awhile, but yeah.

Thanks, Baby.

Shufflemancy with the Morrigan

I have been grading for the past hour, I guess. It seemed like it was longer. But I needed a break and just before that, the Morrigan’s shufflemancy trigger song, “Ain’t No Rest for the Wicked” by Cage the Elephant came on. I don’t always pay attention but this time I did and it seemed perfect timing since I am now taking a break from grading.

The next song was “Again” by Flyleaf:

^ I just learned how to do that

Honestly, it is a bit odd of a message from the Morrigan. She doesn’t often pick songs like that. She doesn’t typically say, “I love you.” And I don’t usually associate that song with me. I am not that much of a take on all the weight of the world type people… Well, I say that…but I don’t know…maybe sometimes I am…

The “believe again” thing, yeah, maybe a bit more related to things for me right now as I have a tendency to have those moments about things where I give up just a little bit. Also, the idea of the “only surrender will help you now” reminds me about this whole choice thing again so maybe that is what she is trying to tell me.

Who knows from her. I may meditate or ask her later about it. Right now I need to finish grading.

Shufflemancy Messages 3.25

As things come up I will obviously create new categories of what I do. Since I mentioned music the other day and since apparently someone decided to get my attention I am starting a little section of this blog relating to Shufflemancy Messages.

The What of Shufflemancy:

If you don’t know what shufflemancy is, here I will give you the basics as I understand them. In general, you listen to your music on shuffle, whether that be with your iPod and iTunes playlists, Pandora stations, or Spotify playlists. You can send out a question to the ethers to be answered or ask a specific being to answer the question with songs or you can set certain songs as triggers that indicate a message is about to come through. I have certain songs that I link to certain deities and spirits I work with. I don’t always pay attention so it depends on if the song actually catches my attention that I look for the message. Sometimes I set it to be so many songs after the question is posed or the signal song comes on. Other times it is the very next song. Then I look at that song’s lyrics for the message. Sometimes it’s just a small set of the lyrics and sometimes it’s the full song. Sometimes it is clear and sometimes it isn’t.

Today’s Trigger:

Just now I was looking through my dashboard on Tumblr and saw an image that reminded me of the Morrigan with whom I work regularly. Then there were a ton more images much the same way. No big deal, generally.

Then the next song on my Pandora was “Witch” by Cold. This song isn’t generally associated with her as I have never really heard it before, but something told me to look at it. I may associate it with her in the future now. The song itself didn’t seem like the message; though, I still want to include the lyrics here:

“Witch” by Cold

I never knew, she’s gone 
She’s flown away 

Everyone said she’s not 

Your kinda girl 

I’m so alone, this girl 

Is flowing fear 

Everyone said 

She fucked up this time 

It’s my brand new world 
Today 

And it’s my brand new world 

This way 

I’ll never change, it’s wrong 
So go away 

Everyone said she’s not 

Your kinda girl 

I’ve tasted love, it burns 
I’m so afraid 

Everyone said 

She fucked up this time 

It’s my brand new world 
Today 

And it’s my brand new world 

This way 

I think this fucking witch knows 
The way 

And everything I feel 

It’s all mine

The Song Message:

The next song that came up is a song I have gotten from the Morrigan before which definitely seemed more inclined to be her message for me. I could have gone with the third song (“Ghost of You” by My Chemical Romance) but Breaking Benjamin’s “I Will Not Bow” is more of the message.

“I Will Not Boy” by Breaking Benjamin

Fall

Now the dark begins to rise
Save your breath, it’s far from over
Leave the lost and dead behind
Now’s your chance to run for cover

I don’t want to change the world
I just wanna leave it colder
Light the fuse and burn it up
Take the path that leads to nowhere

All is lost again
But I’m not giving in

I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade
I will take your breath away

Fall

Watch the end through dying eyes
Now the dark is taking over
Show me where forever dies
Take the fall and run to Heaven

All is lost again
But I’m not giving in

I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade
I will take your breath away

And I’ll survive, paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I am not proud, cold-blooded fake
I will shut the world away

Open your eyes!

I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade
I will take your breath away

And I’ll survive; paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I am not proud, cold-blooded fake
I will shut the world away

Fall!

Commentary:

I have gotten this song from her before, like I’ve said. And both times it has really been the set of lyrics that say “I will not bow/ I will not break/ I will shut the world away/ I will not fall/ I will not fade/ I will take our breath away.” It always gets me a little more motivated to do something and keep going and not let things get me down. Though, right now, I have gotten out of that funk, I think she is still there encouraging me to keep moving forward on this path I am trying to find for myself.